Gabapentien

I have tried gabapentien for about a year at 800 mg per day with no benefit. I have stopped and just suffer all day and night. Should I try it again at a higher dose. I am on lamotrigine and it is supposed to help. The doctors in my town have a policy against opiates and will not give me any. I wish I could move to where there are more doctors so I could find one willing to help. There is only one clinic in town. I have been to a pain specialist and she is against opiates as well. Has anyone got success stories from other meds. I just seem to be able to make it with this disease and am tired of living this way. I am married and have three children so I will stick around for them but I feel like I am going to have a heart attack or get cancer due to my poor health. I am able to walk but it sucks. I feel like I am 90 years old at he age of 54. I find it very difficult to concentrate because of the pain and don't seem to be getting better at this. I am rambling but it helps to vent on here when nobody else wants to hear you complain. I haven't slept properly in about ten years and find I am just stuck in a rut that I cannot break free from this constant BS. I also have terrible rinigng in my ears that is difficult to ignore on top of the pain. THe days seem to be twice as long as they should be when you are just exhausted all the time. Any words of wisdom are appreciated.

Gabapentien